Something has changed. Something is gone. Sadness has faded But I fear so has my self-worth, My true me, My control. I said I wanted to be happy I wanted to be free of this numbness and pain Is it worth the cost? Of becoming a submissive role? Of taking the underbelly side of life? Is it worth becoming the person that I was before Blinded and mute, To be happy, To be free (in a sense of the word)? Isn't that all I aspired for?
But who will I become If immediate gratification Is all I chase after?