I feel hopeless
and mostly helpless...
I do admit-
I don't know how to do
all this on my own...
And I don't know how to ask
for some help...
Why does it have to be
so hard to be a single mommy?
I love my children
with all my heart!
I don't know who or where
I'd be in this life of mine,
without them...
I'm a Mommy
and now a Grandma, too!
But beyond those 'titles'
who am I...?
What is my life about...?
What is suppose to happen...?
What is suppose to be
of me...?
I find myself asking out loud
"Now what?"
And I'm asking it again now...?
Maybe I'm asking it
in the form of a Prayer...
But I still don't
seem to be getting any answers!
I feel lonely most of the time
and oh so lost...
I feel like almost
just giving up-
but my children keep me
strong enough!
I've got a lot of
wants for my life...
but I don't know
how to achieve what I want!
I dream of how I'd like
my life to be...
but I don't know
how to reach my dreams!
I don't think
my purpose in this life
is to feel so ****
hopeless and helpless...
I need someone's guidance,
but I don't know
how to ask for it
or who I can really go to,
who I can really call
'that one friend'...
I know I have friends,
but one to bear my soul to,
all my failures to,
open up all of my fears to...
I don't know if I have
'that one friend',
that is within my reach!

2008

COPYRIGHT; Sabrina Denise Healey,
~Angelmom~