Mar 2011
Do you really know what its like to feel your heart pleading?
God forbid you know what it’s like to feel it bleeding
These memories of better times, the gentle touch of your kiss…
Our conversations of love and life, Our friendship, bittersweet, I miss…
So many things still left for you to hear
Sealed away in the base of a single tear
Tear’s filled with a 1,000 dreams
Meaningless to you, gone… they seem
Watching them shatter as they keep hitting the floor
All the hopes and wishes, forever, no more
Yeah, I try not dwell
But sometimes it’s hard not to feel it swell
My mind races, and I feel like I’m in hell
My Stomach aches, No, I don’t feel very well
And yet, while I fight this constant endless battle
You pride this... silent... fake.... "happiness" saddle
No, don’t you look up, not even once
Not even for a second, cause I’m just a dunce
A fool, a clown, pointy hat and frown
Seems like everyone is laughing, the whole **** town
No sense of mercy, will I struggle, tread, and drown
It feels as though I’m already 6 feet under the ground
Was it wrong to love you?
Is it wrong to hate you too?
Was it right to let you go?
Something I’ll never know
So I fight…
I fight…
And I fight once more…
I fight these feelings while you keep slamming the door
I fight this pain that keeps reaching to my core
I fight this... this... hatred... these thoughts, “*******! *****!”
And I try to fill this crater in my heart with him you quietly, and selfishly bore
All I really want from you is to forgive and forget
Peace, in the words “I’m sorry” with out any regret
Peace in “I’m happy for you” and “you have my best wishes”
Peace in knowing you cleaned all those *****, ****** up dishes
Maybe then I’ll be able to shave off these warts and moles
Stop concerning myself with the hatred and start focusing on new goals
Find someone new, who will appreciate everything I have to give
Find someone whom the rest of my life, unlike with you, I can happily live
So consider this my white flag, girl, I give up, you win
Cause if trying wasn't enough, what ever would have been?
God forbid you know what it’s like to feel it bleeding
These memories of better times, the gentle touch of your kiss…
Our conversations of love and life, Our friendship, bittersweet, I miss…
So many things still left for you to hear
Sealed away in the base of a single tear
Tear’s filled with a 1,000 dreams
Meaningless to you, gone… they seem
Watching them shatter as they keep hitting the floor
All the hopes and wishes, forever, no more
Yeah, I try not dwell
But sometimes it’s hard not to feel it swell
My mind races, and I feel like I’m in hell
My Stomach aches, No, I don’t feel very well
And yet, while I fight this constant endless battle
You pride this... silent... fake.... "happiness" saddle
No, don’t you look up, not even once
Not even for a second, cause I’m just a dunce
A fool, a clown, pointy hat and frown
Seems like everyone is laughing, the whole **** town
No sense of mercy, will I struggle, tread, and drown
It feels as though I’m already 6 feet under the ground
Was it wrong to love you?
Is it wrong to hate you too?
Was it right to let you go?
Something I’ll never know
So I fight…
I fight…
And I fight once more…
I fight these feelings while you keep slamming the door
I fight this pain that keeps reaching to my core
I fight this... this... hatred... these thoughts, “*******! *****!”
And I try to fill this crater in my heart with him you quietly, and selfishly bore
All I really want from you is to forgive and forget
Peace, in the words “I’m sorry” with out any regret
Peace in “I’m happy for you” and “you have my best wishes”
Peace in knowing you cleaned all those *****, ****** up dishes
Maybe then I’ll be able to shave off these warts and moles
Stop concerning myself with the hatred and start focusing on new goals
Find someone new, who will appreciate everything I have to give
Find someone whom the rest of my life, unlike with you, I can happily live
So consider this my white flag, girl, I give up, you win
Cause if trying wasn't enough, what ever would have been?
