Things that turn purple: Feet, when exposed to the cold Food, when exposed to oxygen My face, when exposed to fear To my habits To my past. The mention of tying a noose brings pictures to my mind Of how I used to plan my own death While paging through a magazine in a waiting room Ready for the doctors to see me To tell me I wasn't that sick Because they didn't know the things I did to myself I covered up the sliced layers of my skin quite nicely With different grades of fabric The belts tied in the shape of my neck Hung like skeletons in my closet People kept telling me it was his fault I was so distraught But that did not make me feel any better They would constantly tell me there were support groups for the molested That I was not alone But there is never any solace in being a statistic Numbers burn across my skin like matches Each additional time I heard them The skin would bubble and blister Forming a new wound for me to later pick the scab off If the world did not do that first. Through therapy, I learned that When I try to carry the pieces of me That are bigger than my hands can hold That are sharper than my flesh can take That are wider than my unwieldy body Even though I didn't think that was possible I crumble like the walls of Jericho When an army came rushing the city limits. My past is an armada that rushes full speed through my chest Piercing me with swords and muskets and bullets Causing me to bleed and rot from the inside out Causing me to fall away like petal from stem Causing me to implode silently And maybe a sign of this disaster A symptom of this sickness Is discoloration. Things turn purple As a result of prolonged exposure To their personal kryptonite.