Remorse has never been my speciality
and emotions feel like something I used to know.
But you broke the ice when your hand touched mine
and I melted when our eyes met.
Ive never been one for close contact
and when you left I was only a puddle
and it suddenly all made sense.
You were the summer and I craved you.
But winter has always been my favourite season and it should of been a warning.
You tried so hard to get close to me
but I ran through your fingers until there was nothing left
and now you are gone
and now I am nothing.
Thats the thing about the cold
everyone adores the snow
until they need something
or someone
to keep them warm.
I tried to be mad but its hard to spark a flame when you're ten feet under.
A blanketed lawn so delicate yet so harsh
no matter how lightly you glide upon it you cant leave it undamaged.
Un pure and outspoken.
I built a wall so high and your rays shone through the cracks to keep me company.
But you got tired of being there for no one.
If only you knew I was trying to save you
If only you knew what I did
The harsh frost would only **** your flowers
and I couldn’t be responsible for the death of something so beautiful
And now I am stuck somewhere between love and lust
But I can barely see the difference now that its dark
I'm in a blizzard
And I don't know if you hurt me or I hurt myself
I covered up your tracks so fast I never discovered what was under the ice
Now I must plant my own garden and become my own warmth
But the thought of you chills me to the bone
I don't know how much longer I can take this
But I crave you
I crave spring
When the frozen grass and blooming flowers can exist as one
When time passes so slowly and nothing has ever felt so alive
I crave the vulnerability and bareness
and the sweetness of your lips
and I crave you