It seems my heart has crumbled, perhaps dissolving from within
I don’t know where I’m going, where I am, or where I’ve been
I think that life has passed me by, but only now and then
I grasp the needle, push, and I inject the void again
It seems that love has left me here, inside this cruel illusion
No word from you, no reason why, just adds to my confusion
I dream at night, and sometimes you are there in my delusion
I pray my heart to beat again, so far it is refusing

Its saddens me to think that it was I who caused your fall
The drugs take hold, my soul lets go, and I can see it all
Somewhere far into the distance, I can hear you call
Upright I sit, and toss my last desire against the wall
No one knows, and no one cares, as I sit here alone
Lost within my wasted years, and those that carry on
Trapped inside this nothingness, the life I knew is gone
The only hope I have, is not to view another dawn

The emptiness of what I am has shown me what is true
Inside my mind are nightmares, each night they come on cue
Names are upside down upon my wall, I don’t know who
As I pretend to live, I die, though I remember you
But night drags on and on, I drift in and out of sleep
I see your face and hear your voice, few memories I keep
No where do I find however, the quiet peace I seek
I close my eyes and once again, silently I weep.

Dean Evans
8-01-11