maybe
i've been swallowing words for so long
that i have lost the ability to complete sentences-
i can no longer spit them out and expect something great.

maybe
i've pushed myself around so much
and criticized every thought,
that i can no longer be satisfied with a single breath of mine.

maybe
i'm not who i thought i was
but i don't have a person in mind to be
so i isolate and damage myself in hopes of finding something,
anything.

maybe
i can change.
people say a new year is everything
but is it enough to change me
if i don't know what to change?