There is a change
I have to make.
A change for the better;
A change towards happiness.
I'm lying to you,
Yes you: everyone.
I've cheated myself
And the ones I love.
Why do I do this?
Why do I make myself
suffer?
I'm numb; numb
To my self hate.
No wonder,
I don't want to
Remember
The horrible things
I've done.
Its not like I've killed
Or have done anything
Against the law.
But what I've done
Would disappoint
So many people;
The people I love most.
So,
I have to change.
I cannot change my past,
But I can change myself
Now.
What do I have to do
To make my change?
What do I have to do?
I need to tell someone
Of all my sins.
I need to let you know
Through another soul.
I need to know
I won't be judged.
I need to know
I'll be listened to.
I need to know
That everything will be alright.
I don't just need to,
But I want
To change.
I want to change
For you,
For myself.
At least
I know where to start.
Ill start by changing
Myself.
Secrets, secrets
Are no fun
Unless you've shared them
With everyone.
I'll do just that.
Through you,
My friend.
Because I have a feeling,
You're the one
That will listen
With open arms.
Well in reality,
I've chosen you
To be my listener,
My consoler.
Because I don't want
Anyone else to know.
Goodbye,
My secrets.
Goodbye,
My old self.
Goodbye.