All these years repressed in demeanor I was seen as a man who could only take But in essence my pride was taken away As I sought to reconcile with my lost cause; Those were the times when I was urged Against my will to speak my mind But little did it occur to people I was thoughtless Those were the times when I had to believe That there was a soul in me I had to change But in effect I knew so little about my potential -A shadow of my former self Shoved by those who claimed to be my friends Pestered by those who urged me ‘Believe in the innate goodness of man’, All they achieved was to make me believe I was not the man they wished to idolize. With my efforts in vain my feelings in disdain, I embraced the pain that had consumed me. Why didn’t it occur to my so-called friends? I was not the man they were only capable of seeing, For what was seen was the penumbra of the real being And now when I come out after all my bygone years I open my eyes with renewed faith in mankind, What do I see in this brave new world? -When I’m ready to give no one is ready to take When my mind has opened up despite slippery slopes and free fall Like the ‘Niagaras’ of ideas whose spirit was thwarted by delusions Having formed for my mental conflict an undying resolution There is utterly no one to share my thoughts with, Might as well be no one to experience this despair with The ironic truth of mankind in one bubble of apathy!