what a beautiful moment to ruin
the first night i have seen all of the friends i love most
the first that i have been able to clear my cluttered head
the first that i have been able to breathe

who invited you?
(i invited you)
into my mind all those years ago
it wasn't your place to destroy, though
it wasn't fair for you to **** all the innocent hope i had

i hate you and you know that
you knew i would when you decided to sleep with her
and when you blamed your alcoholic tendencies on me

i hate who i was and you know that as well
but you are so selfish to think that i care about you
that i hold any thought of you
i didn't
until you ruined my night