My legs tense, eyes wary of the slightest movement around me I had to bury all my doubts to even lift a finger, the one attached to a line from my sternum to my hips --So I’m here? Does my presence fail to impress? -- no, it’s nice to feel false breath escape one’s lips and maybe everything we take for granted isn’t really there, but inside (here); why bother holding on to memories of the people you haven’t met when that face beside you now disintegrates to nothing. Even yours, smiling as it’s picking words and touching your sad hands, mascara pens or other ****** “mistakes” you’ve made. I am ashamed and not guilty free from sin and not devout; I watch every drop of sunshine Boil in my head and horrifyingly Evaporate. This empty planet is a hot ***; that’s how I know we are both, in each of our solemn refusal to cling to willingness as virtue or consume yourself with habit—yes I know, eternal subjectivity, which is both you and me is cooking up a stew, and that regardless if you know it one day my boiling water will be inside of you