Why the hell am I crying now,
everything is going so well.
So why do I have tears streaming down my face,
when I know I shouldn't?
Why do random bouts of self hate hit me,
at 12:25 am
when I should be asleep,
In bed?
After a full day of it pounding down
it decides to visit some more,
at the worst times
as I thought I was getting better,
at 12:25 am
hours before I should be awakened.