1. You would find me tying knots in my hair. and the bile would rise in my throat as my hands shook. I lost my voice in the heat of all the voices It shimmered on the sidewalk I
I do not often say the right thing When I am speaking I Donβt laugh easy.
2. When I watch you leave I am reminded of how we used to fold starburst wrappers Into chains and string them across the ceiling of my room. We would be sugar-sick for days.
3. I would rather fly than drive. I turn back too often to be trusted at the wheel.
I am known to dig my nails into my own skin. I never realize until you lace your fingers in mine and we both, Red-handed, Are caught in an apology.
4. You have such a lovely face still. Do you think of us, here?
I catch myself blaming you for the things I cannot change in myself, As if you stole something from me.
But I was the one who stayed when I knew I had to leave. I am the one who keeps quiet when I should be screaming.
5. I wonder if I donβt miss the tragedy of it all, somedays.
6. You would find me sitting on picnic tables Drawing hearts on my knobby knees.