i hate myself again today.
i hurt myself again today.
i healed from yesterday .
then
i hurt myself again .
i am hopeless .
i am a drowning.  
i do not know what to do.
i cry........alot.
i envy everyone because they seem happy.
i want to be happy.
i want to smile.
i want to feel love.
i want to be kissed.
(oh how i want to be kissed)
i want to wake up to scented flowers and candles
sorry for a moment there i was dreaming
i am back and oh wait look at that
i still hate myself