Anguish
You contact me to fill your void, but now I'm falling overboard.
Your words penetrate my being, I'm nether here nor there nor seeing.
I can't hold or grasp onto anything, as my mind and body aren't in sync.
This all consuming anguish I'm feeling, is controlling how I'm breathing.
Short shallow breaths I consume, are paralysing me to death.
My mind and body are inside out, so I try to reach out... unable to shout!
But I'm frightened I'll fall once again for you and catch me not , like you do.
So into obscurity I would pass, leaving life behind me.... as I rest.

Theirs not a day that goes bye, that I find it hard not to cry.
It's because my heart I gave to you, you chose to give it, up over an issue.
And all this pain I feel is in response, to my love I gave you, you do not want.
Now a feeling of emptiness is inside, I begin to wonder, should I live or should I die.
Mistakes are made it's easy to see, it's when we close our eyes, we cannot be

'Their is no us, their is no we. 'Why don't you just let it be!'
We entwined, that was fine, but was I ever on your mind.
I felt abused. 'Were you amused!' .Ahh!.. Pass the tissues.
Love is cruel, love is kind, why were you so blind!
At the very start, I gave you my heart, but you said 'Lets part !'.
But I persevered, with plenty of tears, in revolt of my peers.
Don't you get it, don't you see, I wanted us to be happy!

It's the quiet times, They're the worst, I feel I'm going into reverse.
Keeping busy, though it seems, stops me feeling extreme.
But when that moment comes along, it's like an emotional marathon.
It's my feelings I have restrained, their now uncontrollably rampant.
I gave you my heart, I gave you my soul, I have nothing to console.
You said you loved me and that I was the one,  we quarrelled and I was gone.
So how many times can it end this way, before one of us has to 'call it a day'.
I wanted to marry you, it is true, but destroying each other is a major issue.
I love you so deeply, 'I can't put it into words, we can't live with and without one another, It's absurd!

A hug, a hold, I feel my knots unfold.
The way you kiss, Ooooh, please don't miss!
I glance, I glare, I love you naked there.
Our love, our touch, the smell of you is too much.
It feels sublime, I'm lost in space and time.

I love you so deep, it makes me feel meek.
What you do for me, I can hardly speak.
You make me feel so proud, I want to shout it loud.
And our support for one another, is like no other.
Though we've gone our separate ways, I think of you always.
I know I miss you so much, I feel I've lost a crutch.
Our separate paths we've taken, they'll be no mistaking.
That  my love for you is true, I'd like to say.. Thank You.
(Alistair & Charlotte)

You're so tough , I know you've had it rough.
But lifes hard struggles, are the sink or swim puddles.
We all make our choices, please hear our voices.
But don't blame them on me, they don't make me happy.
Because I've had bad luck too, but I don't dish you.
All this bitterness and hate, I just feel....fustrate.
I can't hack it any more,  ' You said. "There's the door!" '
"I won't stop you, you'll see, I was happy and free".
But you're not happy, now I'm gone.'You said you loved me all along'.
If only you'd said "Stay!", now our love has had to pay.