how can such an ugly thing
look so pretty
as its written
anx-i-et-y

i wonder some days
if you would be happy without me
because
at this moment
thinking that i could be without you
makes me feel like
i wouldnt be happy like i am now ever again
do you miss me when i cant talk one day
do you want to kiss me in the middle of the night
when you are drifting to sleep
do you realize you can break me down
quicker than you could build me up
legos ready to topple over

you keep saying that it'll be ok
and that you love me
but you never said most
quiet voices whispering
that they are so much better to you
than i ever could be
i want to tell them thats a lie
and i love you with my whole heart
but the voices are relentless
and tell me you dont feel the same

will i be forgotten like him
kicked aside and left alone
promises that i mean the world to you
how many times have you used that line
why does it still make me feel remarkable
my heart is an eggshell ready to shatter
at your steady strong hand
and then tossed to the trash
not even worth a memory
not sweet enough i guess

im so sick of feeling worthless
and its because of you
my mind is jumbled
and my eyes sting
because of you
and i hate that you
can make me feel so great
just to knock me down like
a tower of blocks
because my anxiety is much
stronger than
me