Our hearts beat as one
My skips a beat
out of sync, I struggle to stand on two feet
I claw I fight and I wrestle for air
When all that I need is to feel like you care

I keep the window cracked
To hear you pull up the drive
The snow on the path remains unpacked
My brain and my heart argue whether to keep the fire  alive
My heart jumps to the window at the faintest sound
The brain pleads and begs for her to stay down
Time after time my heart rises and falls
The brain yells and scolds her for not heeding his calls
A chill makes me shiver but its not from outside
The pilot light of our love has finally died
The  cold from inside is dull and numbing
As I close the window my heart warns that winter is coming

I sit alone in my tomb of plaster and wood
I would burn it to the ground if only I could
I stare at the candle and wonder if I should

I swear up and down ill never touch it again and really I've tried
But every time I feel down its the place that I hide
I relapse and relapse each time leaves me hollow
Each score brings the high then depression to follow
Dependent on you this fleeting obsession
The fear and self loathing too deep to mention
I keep coming back though I know it's unhealthy
I say I just use it till I'm happy and wealthy
Every time a new ***** a hole to a world apart
My love seeps out in blood from the track marks on my heart
I trust you with my son, my secrets and my life
But I can't trust that i would ever be healthy if you were my wife