I need myself back
I've been to virulent places
Beyond my choices
Just so that I can please the pack

I need myself back
I've changed my hair,shoes,clothes, food
And went loose all in the name of the pack

When did the statutes printed in my mind get erased
The conscience that I used to have went blank

Oh how I need myself back
I dont know how I got side tracked
Coz being part of the pack has made me lose tact
I have wondered into a world that has me sacked
I feel trapped
All because of the pack

But now I realise that joining the pack
Was a threat to myself
So I need myself back
I want my sense back

Ps Radebe.

When life as opening buds is sweet,
And golden hopes the fancy greet,
And Youth prepares his joys to meet,--
Alas! how hard it is to die!

When just is seized some valued prize,
And duties press, and tender ties
Forbid the soul from earth to rise,--
How awful then it is to die!

When, one by one, those ties are torn,
And friend from friend is snatched forlorn,
And man is left alone to mourn,--
Ah then, how easy 'tis to die!

When faith is firm, and conscience clear,
And words of peace the spirit cheer,
And visioned glories half appear,--
'Tis joy, 'tis triumph then to die.

When trembling limbs refuse their weight,
And films, slow gathering, dim the sight,
And clouds obscure the mental light,--
'Tis nature's precious boon to die.

Lil Bug living your life on a lifeline
running around getting food to survive
now you're going around not knowing your fate
or if you'll make it home cos you know you're not safe  

anything & everything is the enemy
when it looks at you, first thing that comes to its mind is "time to eat"
in a split second you are devoured & its the end

so Lil bug be careful, there's a hand & someones feet
when they see you all they think about is that "it's time to ****"
you are not safe Lil bug in this big world
that even human beings have difficulty living in

but you are very brave cos you swallow your fear
and face the world as it is
like a soldier in the battlefield
you are ready for anything

so Lil bug go on living your life
cos Lil bug we only survive here on earth by faith


SP. Radebe

You played some music & you took a glimpse at me
Those steps you took to get to me, had me wondering
When you stare into my eyes
What are you thinking?
When you stare at my lips
What are you wishing?

When im with you
How do you feel?
Have you felt like this recently
If yes, how come it changed so quickly?

Tell me the reason why you want me near
What makes you want to see me again?
What is it
That is written on ur mind
That is so unclear but in plain sight

When you first saw me
Did your heart beat as fast?
As the beat you are dropping now as you sitting behind the counter in that seat
The beat that I heard you playing that day we met on Kasi streets

I can spend my day racing questions in this pool of memory
The  ones you take me back to when you play those melodies
But il never have the answers, only uncertainty
So I'll leave that up to you
To do the reasoning
If you know what I mean

Particular thoughts tickle my dome
like the day my thumb got stuck in my mouth
and how long it took me to get it out
or when Betty stole my doll but i knew
coz i didn't like it at all
and when all i ate was a peanut butter jelly roll
coz it was the only thing i ever enjoyed

it's amazing how i have grown
how i've gone from dressing dolls to dressing myself
making sure i look good for the boys
instead of Barbie looking good for Ken


I walk through castles and dont build them anymore
dont chase butterflies
coz i already feel them in me
when Nick comes running along
dont believe in fairy tales
coz reality has struck me today alot
growing up takes a lot of time and effort
and looking down memory lane brings me joy
when i wake up in the moring
and find us cuddling in our spot