I eat egg whites in the middle of two halves of a bagel everyday that I really can't stand the taste of. I listen to the same song over and over until my phone dies which seems like a sign that I should stop acting all depressing. I walk through the halls at school smiling, waving and making small talk with people I really can't stand. Pretending to be friends with girls that are fake and have loud pitched voices that give me a headache so I take so much Advil my stomach starts to hurt. Looking at the mirror for an hour before I put clothes on, convincing my brain that I'm really fat and look like a dying pig. Lathering myself in self tanner so I can wake up and not feel like a white cloud. I will live my day the same way I lived yesterday and the same I'll live tomorrow. I really don't know if that's even living.