Loving you
Hurts me
Every day
Over and over
Like knives twisting into my flesh
But leaving you
Would hurt
Even
More.
Every day
I struggle through the pain
For you
Over and over
I do not fight
As my blood pools on the ground below me
I have refused to crumple from the pain
Refused to give in
To the quiet solitude of sleep
Refused to do anything
That might take you from me
I have watched crimson blood
Flow from my body
From my heart
I have watched you
As you live a new life without me
And still,
The blood pools around my feet
Loving you
Is the hardest thing
I have ever done.
Loving you
Is the best thing
I have ever done
You gave me wings
Told me to fly
Fly away and never look back
As I rose into the air
On a cloudless, blue sky day
The blood slowed
And the wound closed
And I was free of you
But
I came back
I will always come back.
And when I alighted on soil
That your feet have touched
A million times
The loose earth in front of your house
You were waiting there for me.
You covered my wound
With flowers
Wove crowns of
Daisies and daffodils
You bound our hands together
With roses and lilies
So that we could never leave again
Together,
We danced
Under the stars
The hum of insects was in the air
As we slowly turned around and around
We danced all night
Never tiring of one another
But
It was nothing but a dream
And when I woke up
You were gone
Again.