Look--
You took a book,
Filled the pages with your wages
Of sixteen silver sages--
What does it mean to me?
Fire prints, laundry lints,
The phone call that made me fall.
Walk down that hall where I feel so small.
That tricksy pixie lightened, tightened
The reigns in the rain I fell through a drain
Wish I could go insane.
Our feet in the mud, I watched
Throne of Blood,
The Fallen City of Ludd
Come back to me
Come Back To Me.
I'm a hack a washed up sack
On a beach I feel that leech
Begin to teach me the meaning
Of screaming
Out my emotional, devotional
Love for you.
Please be happy,
My thoughts are sappy.
I lap the sap, feel like crap,
Mazed in a trap,
There's no going back.
Forward.....
Motion.
My devotion like the ocean ends at the shore
I am a *****.
Difficult rhymes for difficult times
Leaning on a crutch
"The human mind can only stand so much"
I would
Do anything I could
To make it good
For us to be--like the sea--
Crashing
Together
Forever
Whenever
You wanted.

Yesterday I woke up
With the first rays of the sun.
A condemned spirit
Haunting my own bed.

I lay, thinking of yours;
Soft like the skin
I used to press
Against my own.

I fantasize
Of laying there again
Whispering the things
I was once afraid to say.

And you would hold me
A cosmic oneness,
Two loving souls,
A golden energy.

All hurt would dissipate,
A bad dream fading.
Your eyes gazing to me
A small brown dot in green.

I would caress,
Tickle you softly
Together we would find
All things to be okay.

But--the sun creeps in
Reality harshly follows.
My bed is rough
My pillows, like rocks.

Dear god I feel
The horrors of hell
The weight of a thousand
Corpses
Hanging onto
Me.

Angels of death
Surround
The dead grass of
The winter.
Into forgotten
Temples of pain.

Burning bodies
Fill the hills with ash
Sprinkled
Amongst the fog.
Breath is short;
Falters.

I obsess
Over what I want
To say
To you.
Bad thoughts
Linger
For a very long time.

Never again
Will I look at
That thing that
Calls
You back.

Alcohol makes me sick
So does the way
That lovers fall out
Into
Hated enemies, or yet
Nothing.

My walls have been
Built
Toppled
Built up again.
I long for a way
To speak to you
Plainly.

Losing
The one I hold most dear
Would be
Unbearable,
But the light of the day
Is dwindling.

You are distant,
Cold
To the touch.
My heart
Feels weak, wet, beating.
Yours seems
So far
Away.

I want to break myself
Into a thousand
And one
Pieces.
Throw them off
Into
The sea.

I create my hell
Within a wall of pain, hurt,
Anger.
It destroys the soul
Builds the flesh
So heavy.

Within myself I want
To reach you
Embrace.
How long since
The last time we felt
One another?

Alone.
Lonely, loneliness, it
Seeps its way
Back
Into the pit of my stomach.
And I feel
So
Bad.

What is happening?
Who am I?
Where did I go?

Lost figures
Dancing endlessly
In shadowed grass.

Meadows in the night,
Lovers in my sight.
Pain in my chest.

Throbbing head
Strings and synths
Bring my emotions out.

A boiling point reached
Shock slowly wears off
Grim, sad reality.

Cut my hair
Shave
Listen to the sounds

She acts as if
She is unaffected
By the end of the world.