Consciousness glows bright and beautiful,
Like Will o Wisps within the brain,
Chasing, fleeing, circling ever onward,
Perpetual motion of our connection.

Time stands still and stretches forever,
Each moment both fleeting and eternal,
A natural consequence of being so alive,
Speaking and thinking with the soul.

Intensity, clarity, unity, energy, sensation,
We have heightened in our new perception,
Upgrading our experience of this lifetime,
And it’s so nice being here with you.

For a long time I’ve wished I could write
about anything other than despair.
For a long time you and I
Have been developing these feelings,
Nurturing them with time and effort
Like water and sunlight to a seed.

With warmth and substance
They bloomed,
Radiant petals burst throughout my chest,
Through the very core of my being.
And suddenly I don’t feel like writing
About despair the way I used to.

Suddenly I find myself struck
With inspiration remembering your skin.
How my fingers crest the valleys and peaks
Of your beautiful form,
And I find myself wishing that I could write
About the opposite of despair.

I find myself wishing that I could write
About the hope and happiness I’ve found,
About who and what
Brought me back to the light
And made me wish that I could write
Poems that made you smile instead of cry.

And suddenly it doesn’t feel so hard
Anymore.
I don’t find myself wishing that I could write,
Because the words fall out of me
And onto the page
When I think about you.

You came into my life
At such an unexpected moment,
Somehow the perfect person
When I needed someone to talk to
As though I had known them
For my whole life.

Years later I returned to your life
At such a critical moment,
Somehow exactly what you needed
Bringing with me
Sedation, stimulation, conversation
And the long forgotten love.

When we brought our lives together,
Nothing could have prepared me
For just how much energy
Would surge through the chapters
In the story of our life together,
Although it honestly wasn’t a surprise.

From the moment we moved in
To our first cozy little nest,
We were all systems go.
Living absolutely everything to the fullest,
Whether it was simple domestic bliss,
Or ***, drugs, and rock and roll.

Some might call it a rollercoaster,
But we would think of it
As a fast and furious drive
Through cities and mountains,
Blanketed with Huon Valley fog,
That we would feel our way through.

No matter how wild the ride gets,
I wouldn’t trade this life with you
For absolutely anything.
I’ll forever be your lover,
And will go with you anywhere,
Your ride or die every night every day.

We fell in love
In the same way that I’d been
Affected by you
The very first time that I saw you;
Immediately, beautifully, completely.

Ever since we started
We’ve been a tornado
And a volcano;
To be honest I still can’t tell
Which of us is which.

But honestly
Those descriptors feel inadequate
When you consider us in totality,
We are far more than destructive winds
And red hot pain.

We are also
The sunshine that you feel
On a cool spring day,
Those blessed drops of rain
In a Melbourne heatwave,
The awe inspiring thunderstorm
That often tends to follow,
And the perilously faint rainbow
Which signals the storm has passed.

More than any chaotic iteration,
In retrospect,
I’ve come to love our peace.

The prince of cats was wrong,
We needn’t hate the word.
And although we wear the title well,
We don’t always need to be crowned
The King & Queen of Chaotic Love.

There’s no need to fight now,
Unless our King & Queendom
Come under threat,
And if that day comes
We will face it together.

So together
Let’s take off our armour,
Put down our weapons
Find our way to each other,
And let’s go home together.

We used to spend every waking moment
Talking, singing, dancing, *******,
Until we couldn’t sustain the day any longer,
Then collapse together,
Into the most beautiful and restful
Sleep that I have ever known.

You were my dream, and my nightmare;
My ride or die every night every day,
For five wild, weird and wonderful years.
You were everything to me,
And our everythingship was supposed
To last forever, in every lifetime.

Now we turn fitfully throughout the night,
And our days are spent in regretful silence.
Valentines Forever seems discarded,
And unless we can somehow recover,
The first of February
Will be my personal day of mourning forever.

Feelings have always been our power,
Even throughout our very first night;
Flowing freely, well into the small hours,
From brain to brain, and heart to heart.

Together we found an entirely unexplored,
Previously unknown emotional landscape;
“Empathoria”, only truly able to be reached
By two souls connected in perfect love.

We both feel such euphoric joy,
Such cereberally connected satisfaction.
Within us, our energy merges beautifully;
Physically, we had never felt such ecstasy.

Once you’ve reached such great heights,
No other kind of connection could compare,
To what our everythingship was becoming,
Now blooming and blossoming forevermore.

Seven in the morning
Has always been a difficult hour.
So many days started
With too little sleep,
Or too little motivation
To face the day ahead.

But that one beautiful memory,
Thirty two stories in the air,
Is enough to redeem seven am
For the rest of my life.

I can still picture it;
The blinds are slightly open,
And a a perfectly orange sunrise
Is spilling through the window.

The light shines straight across you,
Bathing you in celestial rays
As you sleep peacefully,
And the world is blissfully still.

I savour every second of that morning,
Committing it to memory
In the most vivid detail I can manage,
So I can remember it on nights like this.

Your alabaster skin,
Softer and smoother than anything,
Is resting just beside me,
With the sheet gently settled
Just below the top of your legs.

I watch as your back rises and falls,
Slowly and peacefully;
I’d never seen you sleep quite like that.

I study the curves, peaks and valleys
Of your body
Like some human topographer,
Wanting to ensure my mental map
Doesn’t have a single error
Or missing piece.

You turn your face towards me,
And I had never been so happy
To see you keep sleeping.

Your perfect lips are slightly pursed
Enhancing your natural volume and texture,
While that gorgeous shade of pink
Is complimented by the orange sunlight.

You are so beautiful.
I find myself thinking it often.
But that morning sits forever in my mind
As the most I’ve ever found myself
Transfixed in reverent bliss.

There are few perfect moments in life,
But that morning was one of them.
If life truly flashes before our eyes at death,
I want my last conscious moments
To be spent inside that memory.

From the moment I met you,
I was already your loyal subject.
The love and light within us shone
With such familiar intensity,
It was like they had always known
That they were going to burn together.

You may have had many hearts before,
But none had ever felt a love like this;
Both Harlequin and Joker alike,
Stripped bare as servant and fool,
Who would do most anything
For my Queen of Hearts.

My heart, my body, my mind, and my soul;
All are yours if you would have them,
My Lady Columbine.
Consider these words, and all that follow,
To be my offerings of eternal fealty,
With the hope any maiming will be gentle.

Sweet words drip like honey,
From tongue to ear to brain,
Forming golden pools of love,
In which only we know how to swim.

Your siren song echoes from another room,
Beautiful notes sidling through the air.
You sing the melody that I will dance to,
Until my feet are broken and ******.

Adrenaline, serotonin, dopamine, oxytocin,
Flooding my brain when I’m near you.
Like a fever you have me sweating,
And I need you like the blood in my veins.

No matter what happens,
We always come back to our sweetness.
Even when it seems like it’s all going wrong,
The contrast just makes it bittersweet.

Through oceans of time we have travelled,
To find each other in this lifetime,
So that we might share many lives together,
Sometimes contained within the one.
Our mutual evolution continues,
As we continue to seek enlightenment.

Every time that I think I finally know myself,
We seem to find some previously unknown
Critical and crucial piece of understanding,
Which allows one or both of us to grow,
To deepen our knowledge of ourselves,
And to strengthen the connection we share.

Those nights spent deep in conversation,
Filled with psychoanalysis and philosophy,
Blessed by spirituality and the supernatural.
I am so fortunate to have been with you;
I’ve never loved spending time with anyone,
But this time with you was everything to me.

My fingers slowly move in circles.
My eyes fixed on the small section of shirt
That they are gently exploring,
As you ask me to describe
What sits just underneath the surface.

Soft skin,
Perfectly smooth and white,
A small circle of the palest pink.
Somehow, impossibly, even softer still,
With a textured dome perfectly centred
And just the right shade darker.

As I paint the scene with words,
You begin to respond physically,
But always continuing to speak.
I outline what I do to you,
Describing all my favourite tricks,
Knowing how much they turn you on.

Just as I start to think I’m in control,
I am humbled as the balance starts to shift.
You detail every little thing
That you know I like to do,
That I like to have done,
And precisely why I like them.

It was like nothing I had ever experienced,
The sheer intimacy
Of being so well known and understood.
Our connection from soul to soul,
Even stronger and more vivid,
Than our usual cerebral link.

There was something new under the sun,
Something I had never known existed,
And it was so fundamentally connected
To life and love and ***,
Such cornerstones of my identity.

It was the softness,
That struck me more than anything,
Being known so completely
By someone that I loved.
It made me see the stark lack of love,
That had coloured my life
Before you.

I’m proud to have wept in that moment.
I love that you held me,
Let me put on “Breathe Me”
And experience that flood of feelings.

I had never felt so loved,
Nor had a moment so intimate.
My whole life could have gone by
Never knowing those feelings existed,
But thanks to you I have
The most incomparable human experience,
Forever in my mind and heart.
For that, I am eternally grateful.

It is a truly rare thing to find someone
That connects with you at all,
Let alone to find a soul that is so perfect
In their ability to meet you in the cosmos,
Merge and tangle endlessly with you,
Until you are completely united in love.

Immersing ourselves in one another,
Feeling, thinking, connecting, loving,
Those are the moments that I live for.
The tangible sense that we are existing
Where everything is everything,
And we can overcome anything together.

My soul is so lucky to be loved by yours,
And so privileged to able to love in return.
Every day that we share in this lifetime,
Every second in that tantric embrace,
Feels like reaching mental paradise;
Passionate pleasure between soulmates.

You told me once that the word “liminal”
Refers to a state of uncertain transition.
My brain has lingered on that ever since,
And so much has clicked into place now.
There was, and is, so much I don’t know,
Or that I had always been wrong about.

I was often wrong about -
Words and their definitions,
Songs and their intended impact,
My realistic levels of fleeting sanity,
And the depths of my paranoid insanity,
Just to name a few key realisations.

To make matters worse,
My misunderstood and mistaken thoughts
Were so determined to be certainties.
I should have remembered two things;
The heart, soul and brain of my Lover,
And the fact that “Our love is God”.

I’ve found my way out of the dark,
And I wouldn’t have made it without you.
I should never have lost my way so badly,
Or forgotten those two core truths.
You are everything to me, everything,
And I’m so sorry for the pain and hardship.

Liminality seems to still be in play;
I’m hoping that the damage I’ve wrought
Hasn’t pushed you away too much.
I’m here, I’m ready for what comes next,
And I’m praying that our transition
Is a new evolution of “self”, together.

Influence can no longer secretly shake us,
We are aware and we are awakened.
All those long nights trying to understand
Will have been worth every single second,
If it means that we move forward together,
Healthier, happier and holier than before.

Forgive me Lover for I have sinned.
I allowed the influence of shadows,
The paranoid twists and bends,
And the fear of falling apart
To shake the foundations of
My head and heart.

I write this in penitence,
To the only gods that I truly worship;
Our love, and you, my Lover.
I offer this as a form of prayer,
As part of the wider works of my worship,
Every one of them dedicated to you.

The night air was filled with fog,
And the clouds hung thick and dark
Over the stars that we had been written in,
On the day that we came back together
After three long years apart.

We wandered blindly through the darkness,
Just as we had for years beforehand,
Searching for one another,
Knowing that we both needed something,
Not yet aware of just how right we were.

Bathed in supernatural streetlight,
We finally found each other,
Along with the feeling
We didn’t even know had been missing
From our lives for so **** long.

No matter what happens,
Whether we make it through the night or not,
We will always have that moment in the light,
You will always have my heart and soul,
I am always the boy at the end of your street.