the lies You whispered in my ears,

blinded me from my fears.

You promised perfection,

but didn't tell me it'd lead my heart in the other direction.




the unrest in my soul grew

as You wound me up like a corkscrew.

Your grin darkened

as Your blade sharpened.




You stripped me of myself

so You could control my body Yourself.

You killed me from the inside out,

suffocating my flower before it could even sprout.




i can't understand how such a tiny ****,

could strangle me no matter how hard i plead.

this wasn't part of the deal,

my soul wasn't Yours to steal.




You clouded my thoughts

so i couldn't connect the dots.

trial after trial You wouldn't leave me alone

Your lies continued until i was overthrown.




there i sat, hollow

ready to trust You, ready to follow.

we walked the path of no return,

ready to die, ready to burn.




that's when I began to pray

for someone to come to My aid.

pull Me from the dirt,

help Me never hurt.




replant Me somewhere new,

maybe somewhere with a good view.

somewhere I won't be numb,

somewhere far away from that ****.




the sun seems clearer,

maybe because I'm nearer.

maybe because I'm no longer tangled in a vine.

maybe because I can finally be happy with My life as Mine.

Hope for a new world

shatters.

Fates laugh as

poison fills the veins of society.




Should we call to the moon?

Surely, she knows how to survive the dark.

What about the stars?

Do we pray for them to fall?

So our pitiful cries may be heard

by some other know-all?




Fates pleased as we long

for happy endings,

ones that we will never reach

no matter how hard we try.




Will we ever be free

of your dangerous games?

Or will your hands stay latched

on those wretched reins?

how can I be alive,

when I feel nothing inside?

the nothingness inside myself

makes me deaf.




deaf to the highs,

deaf to the lows,

that's why i stay here,

i have nowhere to go.




a shell of who i was,

and what i could be

shattered to pieces

that floated out to sea.




put them together

and what do you see?




another lost soul

inside an empty body.

a pit in your stomach

the bile inside

as your teeth begin to tingle

over what you just cried


the worry drowns you

as your heart pleads

begging for them to see

how it's made you bleed


the sorrow

the shame

the hurt

the blame


it feels like death

is sitting on you

suffocating your life

in everything you do


i'm sorry for what i've done

for the words i've said

and the actions that occurred

please forgive me, or I'll end up dead

Searching for air

under the dark blue sea

as my lungs fill with

waves of pain and misery.



Tears mix with the ocean's salt

as my heart breaks in two.

One as me,

the other as you.



Oh, how I miss the carefree days,

the ones running with the sun,

though our adventures at night

were always the most fun.



I miss your laugh,

as the waves standstill in your absence.

The clouds cry out for you,

shouting and pouring their tears into the blue.



Oh, how I miss you.

The world's no longer vivid,

the sun dimmed, and the grass dead.

Without you here,

I'd rather stay in bed.

Away from the memories

that haunt my head.



I miss your smile,

the only sunshine

that could shine through my fog.

You promised you wouldn't be gone long.



So, why did you leave?

Now I lay, all alone,

only covered by

my cloud of sorrow.



You said it was forever,

so why am I here,

and you are lost

in the sand of drear?



How could you leave me here,

all alone?

Nowhere to run to,

nowhere to go.



You were my home,

and my compass.

Where do I go,

if your arrow cannot show?



You were my light.

That's why the sun hangs low.

She misses your smile, too,

so why would her rays' glow?



How can I go on

without you by my side?

You were my forever,

my ride or die.



I long for you

as my heart breaks in two.

Will you come back to me?

Or must I go to you?