I just wanna make you laugh
I wanna see that smile

I want love
I want you
I want us
I want me
I want peace

Do you still feel the way you did six months ago?
Do you still feel the love I cherish for you and no one else?
Do you ever wanna leave?
Do you ever think of anyone else?
Is she better?
Do you trust me?
Are we just in it because we are scared we are no good?
Are you still happy with me?
Could I change anything?
What is this now?
Do you still love me?

Why do you give me this feeling
The feeling of me wanting you back
Even when you cut my heart open
You showed me you didn't care
That you'll never want anything to do with me
Your cold, cruel hands choked me
But I still stuck around
I didn't care what your crazy mind did to my feelings
I still stuck around
Even when we were no more
I still don't know why
But I did
I loved you
I'm not sure what I feel for you now
All I know is that you'll always have a place in my heart
You where there for me
You hurt me
You loved me
Maybe still do
Not sure
Still not clear to me
You don't tell me much
You were my first in may things
You were my first boyfriend
For a long time
Even though we were young and didn't know what love was
We were together
Love is a passion between two people
Love is being happy with one another
Love is being able to tell them anything you want
Love is bring afraid of losing your partner
I'm afraid
I wanna know you forever
Maybe not be together
Your warm hands come back
They love and carry me
They were always there when I needed them
A hand to hold
A body attached
To cuddle with
To be with

I still have feeling, I know
I'm mostly sure
But I must move on
I have somone now
Who shows and tells his passion for me everyday
But you
I hate you with a passion yet love you till eternity

Sometimes I want to tell you to stop talking to me.  Forget about the past.
Forget what we were and what we said to each other.
Forget all of what happened between us mostly because I don't think I'm good enough.
I don't think that I'm capable of being what you want in a girl.
It hurts me and it kills me to know that you had way better girlfriends,
even when you tell me that you've never met a girl like me.
Every guy tells me that.
I never believed them.
I never have, never will.
I don't know why you still talk to me.
I don't know how you do it sometimes.
We have horrible fights.
Sometimes I just want to cry my eyes out like now. Sometimes I want to slap you to help you realize that I'm not the right one for you.
I hate when we fight, it's the worst feeling ever.
My soul dies,
my heart just breaks,
my eyes get watery,
tears start to fall,
maybe too many,
my nose gets runny and I get scared.
I don't know what to do anymore but hopefully a  change will come and it will be a good change.
I will finally love myself but maybe not.
Maybe you'll love me enough for the both of us.
But... I love you.

You make me feel like no one else can.
Every time I'm with you I just want to freeze time so I can spend how ever long I want with you.
Only you.
I never wanna leave your side.
Your the best thing that has happen to me.
After all my heart breaking relationships.
You make up for it.
They don't matter.
Its just you and me now.
I can say so many great things about you but I don't think there will ever be enough space or enough paper.
You drive me crazy.
To the moon and back.
I care about you so much.
As much As you or even more.
Even when we have our stupid fights.
Or serious ones.
At the end of the day we are still happy together. Not together as a couple.
But together that were are unbreakable.
Its been now one year, three weeks, and two days. I wouldn't wanna spend it with anyone else. You are my love, my one and only.
Also my other half.
Your mine.

I hate you.
So ******* much.
Why do you make me feel the way I do know.
I'm so sick and tierd of your ****.
But yet I want you back so bad.
Why?
Get out of my life.
Please.
I'm done with you.
Why are you doing this to me.
The pain I have in my heart is un-fixable.
Unreal.
I get chills.
I get a warm feeling in my heart.
I get the warmth of which was our love.
Sure enough nothing was there.
Get out of my life.
It already kills me when I see you.
Five days out of a week.
I have someone now.
Your the old.
He's the new.
He's the now and the future. Your my past.
My ugly, hideous past.
The cold past.
So let me be here.
With my one and only.
My other half.
Just please leave my life already.
Get out.

Some day I just cant help
but fight with you.
Even though its bad.
I just feel happy when I do.
Not a good type of happy
but the happy relieve type.
I get everything out.
Everything I have to tell you.
But sometimes it hurts.
In my heart.
When you tell me those things
I dont wanna hear.
I just wanna cry.
But its not so offten you do.
Its mosty just me.
I dont know what it is.
I just get so annoyed or something
and I make things 100 times worse.
I just wanna yell at you.
But also you should know I dont mean it.
Im crazy for you so
dont take so many things close to heart.

I'm sorry.
This is all my fault.
I led you on.
I made "us" stronger.
Then broke it.
I cared so much,
but yet did so little.
I didn't tell you.
I couldn't bare.
I knew you would be crush
so I didn't say a peep.
But in the end I was the one
hurt as hell.
I left you.
For a day.
I couldn't.
I couldn't let the ex
**** me.
Win my battles.
I wouldn't let him control
my life.
No matter how much he acts like he cares.
He has no heart
compare to yours.
Yes I may still have a small piece
that cares for him.
But I miss the memories.
Not him.
I miss you.
My now.
I don't care for the ex.
The past.
My future is you.
I wont let anyone get in the way.
I sorry.
But I'm still not ready for anything serious.
But yes your still my future.
Like you said you know we will last for a long time.
So see you then.

Your lips are bliss.
I just can't help but want to
kiss you.
Every moment with you is amazing.
But those lips.
I just can't get over.
They get my attention.
Its like they calls
my name.
When our lips meet,
Its nice.
Makes me fell wanted.
Makes me fell like you'll always
be there for me.
Like you'll never leave my side.
Not even a little,
nor for long.
You have this beautiful passion.
That's no one I've met has.
Your amazing.
I crave you
and your kisses.

Tell me why
when I saw you yesterday
I didn't care.
I didn't care I was late.
To see you.
I just cared that you
walked away.
I know I was late.
But not that late.
It ****** how you
didn't turn back.
Even with my hard, cold,
foot steps.
The leaves crunching
between my feet.
Tell my why
didn't you
Turn around.
So I could just see
your beautiful smile.
Those eyes that fill my joy.
I had to run.
Run for you.
Even when my friends were
behind me
calling me.
But not by my name.
You still walked.
Tell me why.
Finally caught up.
I walked next to
a handsome young guy.
You.
I couldn't help but smile.
You gave me a smile.
You grabbed me by the hand.
I got crazy butterflies.
That's all you could do.
You were on a call.
But tell me why
I didn't care to follow you.
Look like a stalker upon my friends.
My guy friends.
I was just happy to have you
next to me again.
For the first in a long time.
Tell me why
I wouldn't mind chasing you again.

No words can describe my feelings for you.
You know how to make me happy.
Put a smile on my face.
I don't know what it is.
Something about you is just so
addicting.
Is it your smile that melts me.
Your nose that fits perfectly next to mine,
as you plant a kiss upon my lips.
The wonderful kisses you give me,
randomly, passionately, but delightful.
Your perfect eyes that just look into mine.
The way they look when I catch you
staring at me.
You say so many word
in silents.
Could it be my heart
pounding rapidly
every time I see you.
Or is it your cute bear hugs
I just cant get over.
Squeezing you tightly is just amazing.
Having you by my side,
feels like heaven on earth.
Your personality is on the dot.
No word can describe my feeling for you.
You know how to make me happy.
Put a smile on my face.
I don't know what it is.
Something about you is just so
addicting.

You cant just assume things.
You have to know
you can control yourself
to ask.
Don't think I don't want you
as much.
I'm crazy
for you.
You need to understand.
Don't be stupid.
I like how you get jealous
but you take it past that sometimes.
There is no one else,
out there the're no guy I care about
as much as I do for you.
No one gives me those feelings
that you do.
I get mad butterflies sometimes.
You'r my only.
I care to much
to let you go.
Not know.
Its too soon.
If you expect something from me
I expect 100% back.
Your mine.
Not exclusively,
but you always call me yours.
That you don't wanna
share me.
I get it.
I don't wanna share you.
So Its only you and I,
against the world.
Fight after fight.
Will get threw it all.
I cant let you go.
Not now.
Its too soon.
Its only you and me.
For a good long time.

Every time we talk
I just feel so grateful.
You'd make me feel again.
Ater all the damage
the ******* have done to me.
The broken pieces
of my heart all over the floor.
Looking like dust.
The slits on my wrist.
You were the one and only
guy who would cure me.
Picked up every single little tiny piece
of my heart.
Kissed the slits
on my wrist.
Without you I don't know
where I could be.
With all the swallowed pills
in my system.
You made me stop.
You did.
No one else.
You thought me how to
live again.
The safe
exciting
wonderful
loving way.
Gosh without you
I could be dead.
So thanks babe.
You gave me a second chance to life.
A beautiful one.
A life I woudnt mind
living or loving you
forever.