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Paloma Dec 2011
Wrote my first suicide note
at the age of 11
used my first blade
at the age of 12
lost my only friend to suicide
at the age of 14
swore to **** myself
by the age of 17
I'm still here
but my promise still lives
one day
I'll die by my own hand
one day
I'll have the ***** to pull the trigger
one day
Paloma Dec 2011
Off to where the crazies pace
and midnight guards patrol
where the walls and floors
are spit shined clean
the stench of chlorine
the antiseptic sheets burn my nose.

I can't breath
suffocating in this world
this padded cell
Is this suppose to help?

They have me chained up
****** up
like some kind of animal
holding me down
into a sedated sate of mind.

Their puppet and toy
their experiment
to do as they please
as another needle breaks the skin.
Paloma Aug 2011
Die
Do it
I dare you

Take the gun
Put it to your head
Pull the trigger

Do it
I dare you

Open the bottle
Take the pills
Lose consciousness

Do it
I dare you

Die
Do it
You won't be missed

Do it!
DO it!!
DO IT!!!
Paloma Aug 2011
Scars up and down my arms
memories of the pain
come flashing back

like a whirlwind
of nightmares haunting
my dreams

the sharps screams
of agony and pain

so vividly playing back
like a camera capturing lies

the black abyss
at where you lie
for all eternity

like the death
that is slowly creeping in
Paloma Aug 2011
Everyone talks
College, Degree's
So many dreams & wishes
All fallen apart & broken

What now?
Wasted my life
No interests
Just death

There's nothing left
What now?

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