Love; a painful, mesmerizing word.
Given and or taken, either way
it is absurd.
Those feelings always fade away.

What, who, why do I love?
What does it mean?
Why must there be push and shove?
Love isn’t so keen.

For now I am walking through a haze,
full of saddened, broken and confused thoughts.
My mind is a precarious maze,
with ideas that give off gunshots.

Can I take this pain
and throw it all away?
Let it flow down the water main
and eventually decay.

can I discard these feelings?
Why must I succumb to all of this?
I can’t quit my dealings,
why can’t I think of your kiss…

The kiss with your sweet lips,
pressed against mine ever so soft,
I begin to fall as my pain just drips.
But because of you, I’m set aloft.

Floating in the air,
soaring the misleading wind
Waiting as my heart beats a tear,
My love becomes a treacherous whirlwind.

Remembering those nights,
when I moaned your sweet name,
a kiss breathed upon me without the lights.
My heart was never near tame.

Oh do I wish I could dream
our bodies combined again.
but you’ve swam upstream,
the dreams will stop, when?

You were my home,
with your arms wrapped around me.
Now I’m left here to roam.
Always feeling weary.

Saying goodbye to a year,
It’s all to soon.
I can’t help but fear,
What will rise with the new moon.

All the emotions mix,
Making me feel so sick.
Feelings cold as onyx,
it’s only time before I tick.

I’m floating on dark clouds,
A storm soon to rumble in.
Even with the crowds,
The worst pain has yet to begin.

I dream of the dark
where I fall in deep and cannot breathe.
Where one tiny spark,
will make my blood seethe.

I shared everything, all of it.
The good and the bad.
The new experiences even fit,
this break up makes me mad.

My tears have run dry,
maybe that’s a sign,
but I’m sure I can cry…
When I walk back on that line.

Thinking of you,
thinking of us.
Time was so few,
I know it wasn’t lust.

Do I still have the right to say,
how much I love you…
To this day?
What do I do?

Everything is mixed up,
my feelings for you, or him.
The feelings they should give up.
My future is looking grim…

“I love you,” you would say.
Sweetness in your eyes. Your heart didn’t sway.
When your hand held mine so tight,
you loved me then, with all your might.

My feelings still so strong and keen,
I’d like to believe that this was all unseen.
I’d tell myself, this isn’t real,
I’d say to you, “How do you feel?”

Your reply’s were so thought out,
to the point, you’d look away, and I would pout.
I knew what was happening, I did.
It was all too soon, of course you don’t kid.

This brought me down, way down deep.
I loved everything, it was you I wanted to keep.
It doesn’t really matter now.
You’re leaving me anyhow.

Far away, you will be.
Somewhere I can’t touch or see.
I’ll cry, I think, from this pain.
Like I said, these feelings aren’t tame.

Dearest, I love you still.
And, for sure, I know I always will.
You are my first,
and still, I thirst.

For your touch and smile.
I hope this distance will be for a little while.
But, I know that isn’t true.
Ever since, I said goodbye to you.

I want you here in my reach,
Sometimes in my dreams, I screech.
“Don’t go!” I beg and yell.
It’s all your fault, my heart has fell.

I’m not ready yet, please stay.
I love you dearly, come now, lay.
Let me kiss you, breathe you, touch you, see you.
Shouldn’t you want this too…

You loved me then, I still hope so.
You won’t ever say those words, you’ll be in silence, then you’ll just go.
So take my heart, take my body too.
Whatever it takes, just to get close to you.

I love you, I really do.
How you make me feel, it’s still so new.
You have changed, you loved me then.
We both have changed, I knew you then.

Lie here in my arms,
hold me tighter just til morn’.
As soft sighs whisper between us,
I know my heart will still be torn.

But hold me tighter just once more,
embrace me, kiss me…
I knew you loved me once before.

So stay by my side!
Please baby, don’t leave me here.
I love you, I need you.
So please, I beg, stay near.

Whisper those words that you don’t dare tell!
I need to hear them, you see,
if I don’t… I won’t be able to find my heart
that has fell.

You are my first love,
the way you touched me.
How sweet it felt.
What did you see when you looked at me?

Every one is different.
I know I won’t find someone like you.
My first love, my first heartbreak…
With everything I shared, I just want you.

You made me feel whole,
with how my entire body felt
when your hand fit mine, or when your lips met mine.
My body would just melt.

I cry still, every now and then.
When I think of how we used to have been,
how we could have been…

I have this bad feeling,
that if like this we do end,
and you leave, I feel in the future…
We’ll never meet again…