You really don’t trust him, I understand
Behind those gleaming eyes, the disguise of a trap
But I cant stay away from his blazing sun
The force that pulls me closer is more than gravity can hold
With the words that travel deep in your heart
Be cautious, with one tug he can tear you apart.
Is it more than a soul can take?
His collection of hearts is a growing mistake
I know I can leave and push him away
But every time his words lure me farther and farther into love

The lightning bold through my body
The chilling rain upon my skin
The creeping spiders up my arm
Each escaping breath of life
The eerie darkness of the night

The fireworks of a first kiss
The pungent smell of roses,
Like the first day of spring.
The beauty of the crashing waves
The quiet flutter of a butterfly,
As I float on its wings.
I feel awake.

Losing you
Like realizing you have no air
Like falling into the deep cold ocean
Like being trapped in the dark
Like grabbing for life but finding nothing

A part of me wants to
To say day after day that I am fine
To just put up with an image
Even though its not what I want, I can manage
Keeping everyone happy except one
But if they are all happy, aren’t I?

Walking over to end it
Feels like an empty desert where I can't see the end
Without water, without help
I don’t think I will get through this on my own
But I have to rely on myself
The words stream through me head of how to say it
I look into his eyes for the first time in months
And every inch of me wants to turn around
To forget what I felt, to just like him again
I could never hurt him like I hurt the others
I barely can utter hello before he realizes something is wrong
Before he can ask, I have to start
Everyone said I would have to free myself to be happy
But getting there is drowning me in worry
And as I speak the words, his face loses all happiness
The last months were nice,
But now they are meaningless memories.
I cant bear to look at him any longer
I feel like a monster
And as I finish,
I cant see a light at the end of the tunnel
I just want to give him a hug and cheer him up
But I know that wouldn’t help
I just have to leave him alone
And remember that I did this to him.