Your silence is hurting my ears.
Your expression breaks my heart.
Your indecision of where I stand is tearing me apart.
Your questions burn my brain.
Your statements smite my words.
You can see right through me...
That's not even the worst.
Your distance breaks my body.
Your disappointment makes me cry.
You're ashamed to just be near me...
I can see it in your eyes.
My weakness makes you angry.
My mistakes cause you pain.
My disregard for the love surrounding
is driving you insane.
My words speak out in circles.
My thoughts are out of line.
My irrational explosions
are cutting you inside.
My raging brain is affecting
My lack of knowing what to do.
My only glue to solid ground...
My only way is you.

Dear *,

Please forgive me, I'm not paying attention.
Things on my mind, that I'm refusing to let in,
have taken over and I'm feeling rejected.
******* heart and my mind is infected
with twisted words and they're starting to set in.
My brain is soaked and I'm acting decrepit;
I'm freaking out and I forget how to help it.
Please don't mind my belligerent melt down,
I don't mean it but I mean it for right now.
My thoughts break off and I'm screaming about how
I went crazy and why I'm staying there for now.
Stomp on me and try to toss me around;
my ragdoll syndrome is taking it's last bow.
Forget this, but I really despise you.
You twist my words and you ******* unglued.
Throw out my heart and it's shattered; well that's cool.
I'll break your back with all my burdens you'll go through.
It's no big, but I'm feeling relentless.
I try to sleep but my body is restless.
I toss and turn but my thinking is endless
just imagining the ways I insult you, my princess.
Say you're a man but it makes no difference;
I try to tease (and I'm a good temptress),
you pass it up like it's of no interest.
Make up your mind; I'm starting to feel stressed.
Don't even tell me you aren't paying attention.
Things on my mind, that you're refusing to let in,
have taken over and you're feeling objective,
empty mind and your heart is rejected.
Believe my words and they're starting to set in.
My brain is soaked and my writing is decrepit...
I'm freaking out and I'm not gonna help it.
Remember this, I'm a force to be messed with.
I'll twist your words and I'll call it semantics.
No need to yell, your words never sink in.
You'll sleep better if you let me just win this.
I lost my point but I'll place the blame on you.
I digress, not like it's such big news.
Why stay here? I've been feeling the abuse
of abandonment and all of its issues.
I try to block, but blocking is misuse,
I try to stop, I can't help it...
I miss you.
Forget this letter, I know it won't get through.
Just keep on leaving. I'll get over it so soon.

Fill me with your hollow words and let truth be replaced.
Love me with your empty heart, I see nothing in your face.
Kiss me with your boring lips, I see right through this man.
Look through me like I'm a ghost, forget about who I am.
Touch me with your unsure hands, before they had a map.
Make love to me like it's a job, then roll over and take a nap.
Speak like all the words you say are just words I want to hear.
I see you and your guilty twitch, let's just make that clear.
Don't fool me with chivalry, leave if you want to go.
Don't act as if I won't be fine; you're not everything I know.
Fill you with my hollow words and let truth be replaced.
Love you with my empty heart, you see nothing in my face.