i ache for a son i had in a dream
i passed out in pain, came to with his newborn skin gleaming
in my arms, my body felt slain
i gave him to my friends
let him have uncles and aunties
who held him and held him close to them
he was mine for months in one night
he smiled and cried
he was mine
i woke up the next morning
my body aches and i rise to give him a feeding
to find no crib, no him, my life how it slept
i still feel his crying, his skin gleaming
i still ache for a son i had in a dream