01/19/2013
100 days ago you dropped me.
I felt like I could never regain,
my strength or balance;
you were solely to blame.
01/20/2013-01/30/2013
All the weight I lost,
and the insomnia-filled nights
left my brain over-thinking
"Why can't I ever get it right?"
01/20/2013-01/30/2013
Initially it was horrendous,
the anger that boiled inside.
Wished that you'd get AIDS
and stabbed in the eye.
01/30/2013 - 4/25/2013
Secondly, I was overcome with sorrow,
which consumed most of these days.
A sadness which I basked in,
a never-ending melancholy maze.
02/05/2013 - 03/20/2013
I tired to win you back,
something I now regret.
We could have avoided that storm
and all the confusion, nonetheless.
02/05/2013 - 03/21/2013
Over the weeks we maintained
(or tried to at least)
to be more-so friends,
hoping the pain would ease.
But you knew I wanted more
I just wanted to have you back.
I'd forgive you for your mistakes
your cracked soul I wanted to patch.
03/21/2013 - present
Then it happened:
You stopped talking to me.
As if you had the control,
You disappeared.Vanished.
Poof. And so..
I've stopped talking,
the Facebook stalking,
the phone number blocking,
Now don't come back knocking.
100 days ago you dropped me.
It took that long to get up off the ground.
My heart is mostly back together,
I am waiting for a real woman now.