Your words fall so quickly
And I feel so alone
I do not want to admit there is
Something wrong
But I, I am furious
I have tried a thousand times
And you, you have made me feel foolish
I have tried to play it down
Let it go
But no more
Why?
My mind wrenches in pain
I have followed you
Built you high
And now
What?
Another came and sought me out
Asked for my advice
They opened up
Showed love to me
Something you do no more
And never much before
If at all
I feel so wounded by your lack
Of care, of love
For scarce I feel that I have been
The object of your pursuit
And only an inconvenience
I hurt so much
And all the time
You know this, and know it full well
But now again you let me down
And leave me alone
So I can barely stand
I have tried a thousand times to stand alone
I cannot
And will not
Now
I often feel that I have been
Used and then abused
Not with words, or deeds
But with your callousness
So fine
I scream
*Just have your way
Toss me aside, again
Shown me how you've grown to be
A man of carelessness*
Now my heart feels warm
For in this new light of what I have long held inside
I have found a path to a new place
Where maybe someday, someone might know my name
But it now again it beats fear
That I shall be crushed should I rise again
Grief and sorrow
Sadness and sickness
A poor beggar in the mud
I feel I am
And as time does pass
My heart only beats a quiet thud.
(theinkthatspeaks.blogspot.com)