I think I’m finally starting to understand
not everything has to turn into something
even if I wanted it to
I trusted you easily
maybe too easily
I always try to see the good in people
even when it starts hurting me
I forgave things I probably shouldn’t have
I stayed longer than I should’ve
and I kept hoping
something would change
but it never really did
my feelings for you never left
I tried to act like they did
but they were always there
just quieter sometimes
and I think that’s what made it harder
because I kept letting you back in
like nothing ever happened
but deep down
I started feeling it
this isn’t going anywhere
no matter how much I care
no matter how much I try
no matter how much I hope
it just isn’t
and I’m tired
I’m tired of feeling stuck
tired of waiting
tired of wondering
what this is supposed to be
because it never becomes anything
and maybe you don’t mean to hurt me
or maybe you do
I don’t even know anymore
but I know how it feels on my side
it feels like I’m being kept around
just enough
not fully chosen
not fully let go
and that’s the hardest part
because I can’t seem to walk away
even when I know I should
so I asked you to do it for me
not because I don’t care
but because I care too much
I just wanted it to end quietly
no fighting
no explanations
no back and forth
just… gone
because I think that would hurt less
than staying in something
that keeps hurting me slowly
and now I’m here
waiting
and part of me hopes you don’t reply
because I know myself
if you come back
even a little
even normal
even casual
I might let you in again
and I don’t want to keep doing this
I don’t want to keep choosing something
that doesn’t choose me
so maybe silence is the answer
maybe you walking away
is the only way I’ll finally let go
and I hate that
but I think
I’m starting to accept it
that this
isn’t going anywhere
and maybe
it never was.
Mar 29
Mar 29, 2026 at 1:45 PM UTC
I think I’m finally starting to understand
not everything has to turn into something
even if I wanted it to
I trusted you easily
maybe too easily
I always try to see the good in people
even when it starts hurting me
I forgave things I probably shouldn’t have
I stayed longer than I should’ve
and I kept hoping
something would change
but it never really did
my feelings for you never left
I tried to act like they did
but they were always there
just quieter sometimes
and I think that’s what made it harder
because I kept letting you back in
like nothing ever happened
but deep down
I started feeling it
this isn’t going anywhere
no matter how much I care
no matter how much I try
no matter how much I hope
it just isn’t
and I’m tired
I’m tired of feeling stuck
tired of waiting
tired of wondering
what this is supposed to be
because it never becomes anything
and maybe you don’t mean to hurt me
or maybe you do
I don’t even know anymore
but I know how it feels on my side
it feels like I’m being kept around
just enough
not fully chosen
not fully let go
and that’s the hardest part
because I can’t seem to walk away
even when I know I should
so I asked you to do it for me
not because I don’t care
but because I care too much
I just wanted it to end quietly
no fighting
no explanations
no back and forth
just… gone
because I think that would hurt less
than staying in something
that keeps hurting me slowly
and now I’m here
waiting
and part of me hopes you don’t reply
because I know myself
if you come back
even a little
even normal
even casual
I might let you in again
and I don’t want to keep doing this
I don’t want to keep choosing something
that doesn’t choose me
so maybe silence is the answer
maybe you walking away
is the only way I’ll finally let go
and I hate that
but I think
I’m starting to accept it
that this
isn’t going anywhere
and maybe
it never was.
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