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I'm actually not doing okay right now. I haven't ate in days - just the thought of food makes me feel sick, it honestly disgusts me. I don't really know what to do. I can't seem to go a day without these thoughts in my mind - self-harm self-hate I enjoy seeing myself hurt. I daydream about these types of things - the razor blades slashing at my ankles the sizzling, scorched skin under my fingertips It is so hard to fight these urges, these desires. I am so angry with myself. I cannot stand the thought of who I am. I cannot even look in the mirror without crying and screaming. I truly believe these thoughts that roam around my head - "you're worthless" "you deserve to die" **** yourself" "you'll never be good enough" "no one loves you" "just give up" "why are you still here" I don't recognize myself anymore. I just don't know what to do anymore. Who am I? What is wrong with me? Please, I just need someone to hear me, someone to help me. I cannot conquer these demons alone. I cannot keep living like this and why should I?
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Mar 29, 2023
Mar 29, 2023 at 5:23 PM UTC
3/29/23
I'm actually not doing okay right now. I haven't ate in days - just the thought of food makes me feel sick, it honestly disgusts me. I don't really know what to do. I can't seem to go a day without these thoughts in my mind - self-harm self-hate I enjoy seeing myself hurt. I daydream about these types of things - the razor blades slashing at my ankles the sizzling, scorched skin under my fingertips It is so hard to fight these urges, these desires. I am so angry with myself. I cannot stand the thought of who I am. I cannot even look in the mirror without crying and screaming. I truly believe these thoughts that roam around my head - "you're worthless" "you deserve to die" **** yourself" "you'll never be good enough" "no one loves you" "just give up" "why are you still here" I don't recognize myself anymore. I just don't know what to do anymore. Who am I? What is wrong with me? Please, I just need someone to hear me, someone to help me. I cannot conquer these demons alone. I cannot keep living like this and why should I?
mea024
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mea024
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Mar 29, 2023
Mar 29, 2023 at 5:23 PM UTC
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