I learned a couples things
that took entirely way too long.
Some people enter your life for a reason,
whether they’re here to stay or go.
They all teach a lesson to help you grow.
Some change with the seasons,
blow away with the wind.
You never know a person
as well as you think you do.
I look around when the leaves turn,
a variety of colors
of people you will meet.
When I thought every bridge burned,
nothing but ash and forgotten pasts,
from friendships and relationships
that never last.
She pulls me out the rubble again,
time after time with no hesitation.
She holds on to me while everyone
disappears as quickly as they come.
My best friend.
Some people enter your life for a reason,
a lesson if you will.
But not her.
By her side, I fear not for those
who leave and chose to become
a lesson to learn.
She holds my hand and reminds
me I am enough, we are enough.
She’s my comfort when things
get rough, when my life is in rubble.
Together, we shield each other
from the chaos of life.
Some people blow away
like the wind but she stays,
my firm foundation in the storm
when every leaf flutters away.
She plants a seed of happiness
in me that we nurture every day.
My best friend. The one that stays.
The one I cannot live this life without.
Aug 28, 2023
Aug 28, 2023 at 6:45 PM UTC
You say you trust me but constantly spy on me
checking my location dozens of times a day
confronting me when every little movement doesn't add up
when I don't tell you exactly where I am
when I don't tell you my every single move
I can't breathe, I can't move
it feels like you're holding a pillow to my face
as I claw and kick at any limb I can catch
it's a battle between the two of us
seeing who will pass out first
who will give in and give up
You treat me as a child
even as we're both in our twenties
I don't need another deadbeat dad
telling me everything I'm doing wrong
nagging me for every decision I make
never believing in me,
criticizing every move I make
I don't need someone else
who is only proud to be seen with me
when it works best for them
acting like an overbearing mother
with a delinquent of a child
keeping me on a leash shorter than your temper
I am scared to make one wrong move
to finally rid myself
of this disease you call love
Jul 30, 2023
Jul 30, 2023 at 5:04 AM UTC
I was so desperate to be loved that I grabbed you, holding you inside my heart
where you stuck out like splinters, hurting every time I felt anything, every time I breathed
I built my own coffin using all the memories I held of us, all the hurt with each ***** of the wood you purposeful shoved into me
like the thorns on a rose, there is no beauty without pain but why did I have to get stuck. Was it because I held on too long?
the trickles of rose red blood sliding down my finger, my hands - the same ones you held as you wished me well, wished me love and happiness you had no intention of providing
I plucked you from the bush but you stared at me with the same wilted look in your eyes as these flowers had when they reached their expiration date, when we reached our expiration date
Jun 26, 2023
Jun 26, 2023 at 10:20 PM UTC
The kids I babysit are my favorite part of the day,
Their laughter and smiles always brighten my way.
I love hearing their stories and playing their games,
And watching them grow up is one of life's greatest aims.
They're curious and kind, full of wonder and joy,
And I feel so lucky to be a part of their world!
From the silly faces they make to the songs they sing,
I know that these moments are the best thing.
We play games, read books, and watch TV,
And I'm always amazed by how much they teach me.
From learning new words to trying new foods,
I love all the adventures that we get to choose.
Sometimes we go outside and run around,
Or we just sit and chat and make silly sounds.
No matter what we do, we always have fun,
And I'm grateful that I get to be the one.
Babysitting my best friends are a privilege and a pleasure,
And I'm grateful for every moment that we treasure.
I know that we'll always be friends, no matter what,
And I can't wait to see where our adventures will take us.
I cherish the memories we make together,
And I hope that they'll remember me forever.
I love the kids I babysit, with all my heart,
And I know that they'll always be a special part.
May 11, 2023
May 11, 2023 at 4:53 PM UTC
In the quiet of the night, I'm alone with my thoughts.
The world outside fades away, as the darkness becomes my cloth.
I'm surrounded by an emptiness, a void that cannot be filled.
A feeling of isolation, that leaves my soul unfulfilled.
I long for someone to hold, to share my deepest fears
but the loneliness consumes me, and I'm left with only tears.
The silence echoes through the room, as I'm lost in my own mind.
The weight of my own thoughts, is all that I can find.
The hours pass by slowly, as I'm trapped within my head.
The loneliness is suffocating and I'm filled with silent dread.
But then a light begins to shine, a glimmer of hope within the dark.
And I realize that I'm not alone, that I can make a new start.
For in the stillness of the night, I find the strength to fight.
And I know that I can overcome the darkness with its might.
So I'll embrace the solitude and learn to be alone,
for in the quiet of the night, I'll find a new home.
May 10, 2023
May 10, 2023 at 1:42 PM UTC
From the weeds that grow so wild,
a flower blooms, so meek and mild.
It rises up, so strong and true,
and shows the world what it can do.
With petals soft and colors bright,
it stands out in the morning light.
A symbol of hope, a sign of grace,
it brings a smile to every face.
From the Earth, it draws it power.
A beauty born from weeds that flower.
It reaches high, towards the sun,
and shows the world what can be done.
With each passing day, it grows,
and its beauty only further showers.
A symbol of strength, a sign of peace,
it brings the world a sweet release.
From the weeds that grew before,
a flower blooms and so much more.
It shows us all that beauty lies
in the places we least expect to find.
May 10, 2023
May 10, 2023 at 1:42 PM UTC
The trees stand tall and silent,
their branches reaching for the sky.
A tapestry of greens and browns,
a sight that catches the eye.
Their leaves rustle in the breeze,
a symphony of sound and sway.
Their trunks are sturdy and strong,
a symbol of life and decay.
But in the shadows, they suffer,
a pain that we cannot see.
Their roots run deep beneath the earth,
a network of misery.
They feel the weight of the world,
a burden too heavy to bear.
Their leaves, a cover for the pain,
a mask that they cannot tear.
And in winter, they wither,
a tapestry of loss and grief.
Their leaves, a symbol of sorrow,
a sight that fills us with disbelief.
So let us mourn the trees that stand,
a symbol of suffering and pain.
A reminder of the fragility of life,
a sight that fills us with disdain.
May 8, 2023
May 8, 2023 at 2:47 PM UTC
go ahead
put me down
tell me i'm a good girl
who had a good life
promise me lies
like this wont hurt
that you'll see me again
wipe away my tears with a smile
as you coo me
into my final slumber
put me under
and don't bring me back
you said i was
a ***** after all
so matter of fact
at least now
i can find peace
in a place where
you cant treat me
like a dog
Apr 21, 2023
Apr 21, 2023 at 1:06 PM UTC
growing up makes things dull
things aren't as fun anymore
they don't have the same feeling as they used to
almost as if when you were a kid
you were having the best high of your life
as it protects you from the real world
that is why when you grow up, life becomes dull
the high wears off and life becomes hard.. becomes real
you smoke to make you feel happy and protected
because now there is no protection
there is only you
Apr 4, 2023
Apr 4, 2023 at 2:42 PM UTC
I'm actually not doing okay right now.
I haven't ate in days -
just the thought of food makes me feel sick,
it honestly disgusts me.
I don't really know what to do.
I can't seem to go a day without these thoughts in my mind -
self-harm
self-hate
I enjoy seeing myself hurt.
I daydream about these types of things -
the razor blades slashing at my ankles
the sizzling, scorched skin under my fingertips
It is so hard to fight these urges, these desires.
I am so angry with myself.
I cannot stand the thought of who I am.
I cannot even look in the mirror
without crying and screaming.
I truly believe these thoughts that roam around my head -
"you're worthless"
"you deserve to die"
**** yourself"
"you'll never be good enough"
"no one loves you"
"just give up"
"why are you still here"
I don't recognize myself anymore.
I just don't know what to do anymore.
Who am I?
What is wrong with me?
Please, I just need someone to hear me,
someone to help me.
I cannot conquer these demons alone.
I cannot keep living like this
and why should I?
Mar 29, 2023
Mar 29, 2023 at 5:23 PM UTC