in the bathroom.
palms sweating, heart racing.
in the mirror.
eyes screaming, hard breathing.
as my emotions overwhelm me;
crashing down like a thousand seas.
my reasons to live diminish.
'what the fuck is it gonna take for you to understand?'
'where is your control Rachael?'
'your life is disappointing beyond words.'
words from the people I love.
i try, i'm trying.
i lie, i'm lying.
but i tried, i promise.
no i lied, i'm sorry.
one more time i'll cry,
because i no longer have the strength to get by.
it's a fucking pain to be a pain..
so why not end it all?
blade in hand, wrist in sight.
my only wish is to end my plight.
so selfish, so selfish.
think about those who care for you.
i don't give a fuck.
i swear for this is what they wish.
sitting in my blood with my demons..
fully aware that they have won.
could've swore i heard them say to Satan..
'this time we have her, it's nearly done.'
losing consciousness, i smile..
on my way to hell.
hey, i'll see you in a while.
you know it,
i can tell.
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