You're making me feel like crap. I'm going through a weird patch in my depression where I just don't feel like myself and I'm sad all the time, so maybe this is just that part of me talking right now. I know that you're busy. Cool. Just say "yeah that would be fun". Instead, your responses make me feel shitty like I'm doing something wrong and I'm being insensitive to how busy you are. And actually right now I don't know why I'm typing this. It's not your responsibility to make sure you don't say something that upsets me. It's my responsibility. And I need to change that. And yes, I'm changing that for me because I don't really care what other people think of me. But it's kind of ironic that you told me that, seeing as you seem to care what others think of you a lot of the time. Or at least that's my experience. And wow I really sound like a bitch. But I'd rather be angry than depressed and sad. But I'm not really angry or upset at all, I'm confused. Something between us has changed. I feel like I annoy you or something. And if that's the case, then just be honest. I'm so tired of trying so hard to be friends with you. It feels like I constantly have to put in so much effort to talk to you or anything. It's exhausting. I love you but it's not worth it for our friendship to be so one sided. And now it sounds like I'm breaking up with you haha. But it's crazy. I feel like you don't treat me the same way you used to and it's sad. I miss that. I miss our old friendship. I miss hanging out on the weekends doing homework. But I guess you don't...