I knew right away
when you stopped choosing me.
I knew because you started
only texting back one word replies,
I knew because none of you snap stories
from our trip included me,
I knew because you started untagging yourself
in my instagram pictures - that you told me to tag you in,
I knew because you lied about
other girls being down the shore,
I knew because you changed your Facebook
picture to you and a "friend",
I knew because in the photo
you were wearing a shirt that I bought you,
I knew because you said
she was just an old friend,
I knew because you changed my contact name in your phone
but wouldn't explain why,
I knew because you started rehashing previous drama
just to find an excuse,
I knew because you started
ignoring my calls,
I knew because you said you
just weren't ready for a relationship,
I knew because you said you
needed some space,
I knew because two days later your Facebook said
"In a Relationship" with the girl from your picture,
I knew then that you had never been choosing me.
You were placing me,
into the void of whatever your life was missing.
Merely a place holder
until you found what you really wanted.
I knew, right away
that you stopped wanting me, choosing me, and loving me
because you never wanted
to choose me
to love
at all.
Jul 25, 2021
Jul 25, 2021 at 11:13 PM UTC
I knew right away
when you stopped choosing me.
I knew because you started
only texting back one word replies,
I knew because none of you snap stories
from our trip included me,
I knew because you started untagging yourself
in my instagram pictures - that you told me to tag you in,
I knew because you lied about
other girls being down the shore,
I knew because you changed your Facebook
picture to you and a "friend",
I knew because in the photo
you were wearing a shirt that I bought you,
I knew because you said
she was just an old friend,
I knew because you changed my contact name in your phone
but wouldn't explain why,
I knew because you started rehashing previous drama
just to find an excuse,
I knew because you started
ignoring my calls,
I knew because you said you
just weren't ready for a relationship,
I knew because you said you
needed some space,
I knew because two days later your Facebook said
"In a Relationship" with the girl from your picture,
I knew then that you had never been choosing me.
You were placing me,
into the void of whatever your life was missing.
Merely a place holder
until you found what you really wanted.
I knew, right away
that you stopped wanting me, choosing me, and loving me
because you never wanted
to choose me
to love
at all.
