She was a woman of many disguises
with social masks of all shapes and sizes.
Certain groups called for a different her,
to a point where her true identity became a blur.
Around some, she’d be obnoxious and loud,
but with others, quiet with her head in the clouds.
Around specific friends, she was wild and care free.
Around others, she made choices a bit more cautiously.
She got used to pretending to be someone she’s not
and masks became more comfortable she thought.
But at the end of the day alone in the mirror,
the problem suddenly became a lot clearer.
She changed herself so much to match those around her
that the reflection staring back was a complete stranger.
She cared way too much about the opinion of others
and her people pleasing nature made her feel smothered.
She was scared to open up and let those walls down
in fear of rejection or them not sticking around.
She was hurt badly by being so vulnerable once
so she closed up her heart and locked it for months.
But things changed in her when she met him
and for some reason, he made her world a little less dim.
He took the feelings of ugliness and unworthiness away
and even after some of her true colors shined, he stayed.
He learned things about her that no one else knew
and the walls crumbled down as he worked his way through.
Slowly, her shell reopened and her inner glow returned
after years of love leaving her feeling tired and burned.
The social chameleon in her is now dead, buried, and full of rot.
She loves herself now, inside and out, whether others do or not.