A meditation, a prayer, a promise
by @plainjane
Struggling to focus and get shit done.
Realising just how necessary it is I slow down, ease up. My body is crying out for rest. Soon, I tell it, me, us - soon.
A body fractured, pulled in so many directions, dizzying speeds and gasping for air. Carnival rides but I'm too winded to scream, eyes screwed shut with sensory overload of mind and world.
I demand different. Deserve. I deserve different.
Work when I can. Time off when I need. From now on I build my plans with intention, with rest at the core, enrichment and nourishing takes precedence.
It's the only way I'll cope.
Kindness and long deadlines, slowness and focused activities. Soft soft soft. Lavendar and cotton. Nature to heal. Until I can breathe without panic pounding my chest, laundry lists crowding my throat, I wind back everything else.
I have to live to succeed. And that life I mapped just now is lush with opportunity - focus on care and community over arbitrary Winner goalposts or ingrained capitalist mentalities.
Soft, slow, intentional, communicative, unapologetic, peaceful, at home, in community, divine.
This is how I live now.