I remember the first day
I saw him.
He sat curled around that teddy bear
like it was the love of his life.
*Shy
blushing
intrigued...*
All the thoughts my little thirteen year old
mind could harbor.
I remember building a bond
one unlike any other.
I'd never been able to open myself up.
Free myself
Not until he,
Not until he was–
is–
continues to be.
I remember the way he looked at me while
driving down the road, laughing at his sister's cat.
Innocent.
Both drunk on each other's company
Addicted.
Unwilling for change.
I remember listening.
Listening to you talk about the girl you hoped to marry.
Someday.
Feeling about how much pride I'd have in being a bridesmaid.
Telling you about my fear of being *unloved–
unwanted–
uncherished–*
But you.
You just hugged me
promised I would not fade away.
I remember we bloomed
flourished
intensified.
Our souls intertwining
passions flairing
Heated, red-faced argument.
The way you pulled me into you
lying together
my head on your heart
your arms around my lungs
peacefully existing.
*Breathe in–
breathe out–
Breathe in–
breathe out–*
together.
for what I hoped would be forever.
I remember the pain.
The kind that overwhelms your senses
the kind that demands to be felt.
I remember how everything stopped.
G O N E
Like someone had ripped out my lungs,
and then told me to take a deep breath.
The lungs you once held–
So carefully–
now had gaping holes in them
created by your absence
the undeniable thought that you were gone
and willingly gone.
I remember.
I know the peace.
I feel it every day.
In your absence I welcome the immense calm.
You made your choice.
And you will make one again...
All you have to say is
'Please?'
And I'm all yours.
*With two souls like ours
We will always find a way to each other.*
Always
Jan 6, 2015
Jan 6, 2015 at 7:03 PM UTC
I remember the first day
I saw him.
He sat curled around that teddy bear
like it was the love of his life.
*Shy
blushing
intrigued...*
All the thoughts my little thirteen year old
mind could harbor.
I remember building a bond
one unlike any other.
I'd never been able to open myself up.
Free myself
Not until he,
Not until he was–
is–
continues to be.
I remember the way he looked at me while
driving down the road, laughing at his sister's cat.
Innocent.
Both drunk on each other's company
Addicted.
Unwilling for change.
I remember listening.
Listening to you talk about the girl you hoped to marry.
Someday.
Feeling about how much pride I'd have in being a bridesmaid.
Telling you about my fear of being *unloved–
unwanted–
uncherished–*
But you.
You just hugged me
promised I would not fade away.
I remember we bloomed
flourished
intensified.
Our souls intertwining
passions flairing
Heated, red-faced argument.
The way you pulled me into you
lying together
my head on your heart
your arms around my lungs
peacefully existing.
*Breathe in–
breathe out–
Breathe in–
breathe out–*
together.
for what I hoped would be forever.
I remember the pain.
The kind that overwhelms your senses
the kind that demands to be felt.
I remember how everything stopped.
G O N E
Like someone had ripped out my lungs,
and then told me to take a deep breath.
The lungs you once held–
So carefully–
now had gaping holes in them
created by your absence
the undeniable thought that you were gone
and willingly gone.
I remember.
I know the peace.
I feel it every day.
In your absence I welcome the immense calm.
You made your choice.
And you will make one again...
All you have to say is
'Please?'
And I'm all yours.
*With two souls like ours
We will always find a way to each other.*
Always
