i go to the hospital because thats what you're supposed to do. because everyone seems to change their minds about their asshole dads when they seem them lying helplessly in a bed for invalids. but i don't. i look at him and i don't feel a damn thing. until the machines shut off, he's alive. as long as he's alive, he's the man that grabbed my wrist so hard it still doesn't bend right. a terminal diagnosis doesn't change that.
all thats left keeping him alive is that life support and all the people in this room, people he's hurt, who are crying over him like he said a kind word to them in his life. pussies.
when the doctor comes in and tells us its time, my sister starts wailing. i think its a stalling tactic. so i pull it out myself.
stop crying, its over.