So here I am again, after all these years
Back when I last saw you
I left without looking back
I have changed in so many ways
Older, perhaps a bit wiser, but certainly different from the person you once knew
Time and space took care of that
I remember the first time I laid eyes on you
You seemed easygoing, unassuming...safe
You didn't seem like the type to hurt me
You didn't seem capable of destroying me
You ignored my warnings
You slipped through my defenses
You stole my heart, my soul, my spirit
You took me, and never let go
You held me as I struggled
For who could want someone like me?
Damaged, jaded, pushing you away
Daring you to go, to find someone else
I thought I didn't deserve you, you see
I would only taint you, I might change you
I was also afraid to get used to you and your love
Only to have a gaping hole when it's all gone
Still, you stayed, constant in your love
You didn't say much, but you showed me more
You made me believe that I could be worthy
You made me hope that this could last
Of course circumstance has its own cruel joke
My world came crashing down when I found out
When you told me, stoic and solid as ever
That you were terminal
You humbled me, made me feel so small
There was nothing to do but wait
No surgeries, no medicine, nothing I can do
Heaven won't even listen and give me a miracle
I'd die for you
If that would give you more time
You sadly smiled and squeezed my hand
Said "I'd rather you lived for me."
So here I am, where I last saw you
Where I laid you down in a casket
Where I left the best part of me
Holding on to my last breath until I see you again...