Something started feeling wrong
the anticipation turned into what i dread most
anxiety
He walks in my room
with a lost look on his face
right then I knew
He sat on the couch,
He did not kiss me,
He did not touch me.
My hands were shaking
An elephant sat on my chest,
right then I knew
although I wish I didn’t
In a second, the words came out of his mouth
He didn’t want to be with me anymore
I didn’t know I would feel my heart break the way I did
And in silence,
the tears started to slide down my cheeks
It was the heaviest my heart had felt in years
I could not breathe
I heard him
but I didn’t want to
I suddenly heard myself asking;
Was it my fault?
Why am I not good enough?