once upon a time, someone is born; taught there's no rose without its thorns; choices without one's consent were made; didn't choose the cradle-and inevitable is the grave; didn't have a say in how the roads would be paved;
conditioning all around; schools, and the concept of "grades"; church, and how you're expected to behave; you're "somebody" as long as you don't go astray;
"no pain no gain"-"takes lemons to make lemonade"; didn't chose your height-didn't choose your weight; didn't choose your family-didn't choose your country, city, state;
didn't choose your flesh suit-didn't choose beliefs; didn't choose your demeanor, your personality, or expectations to meet;
didn't choose nature and how cruel and usual or unsual it could be; there's no refund, and what really good are receipts?
you're "somebody" until you're considered "nobody" while you still breathe; there's no "exit" of your choosing-where grace is guaranteed; though you could change your name, smoke cigarettes, consume alcohol, take drugs from your local pharmacy....
it's illegal to seek out a fair, consenting, nontraumatic way to leave; the system demands all of your energy; the system doesn't care how one feels or one's internal grief;
it doesn't matter if you have or want nothing, or if you're a full blown celebrity; nowadays a "star" is the thing more than ever-a person is inspired to be....
there's no where to retreat.... your livelihood revolves around burnout and need to make money....
a wise man once said, "life is suffering, and death is mercy...." i didn't choose to be "some-body"; i didn't choose to have the "ability" to "dream" while i'm asleep; i didn't choose the language that i speak;
if i were "wealthy"- i'd engage in habits that would lead to early decease; but i do not crave money like the parasites in my body craves sugar; if anything i crave natural human interaction-physically-and in other cases intimately- some marijuana, food, satisfactions that one craves instinctively....
but you have to be "some-body", and order to have a chance for that way to be.... nothing here feels real.... and it has been gotten to me....
Apr 26
Apr 26, 2026 at 7:57 AM UTC
once upon a time, someone is born; taught there's no rose without its thorns; choices without one's consent were made; didn't choose the cradle-and inevitable is the grave; didn't have a say in how the roads would be paved;
conditioning all around; schools, and the concept of "grades"; church, and how you're expected to behave; you're "somebody" as long as you don't go astray;
"no pain no gain"-"takes lemons to make lemonade"; didn't chose your height-didn't choose your weight; didn't choose your family-didn't choose your country, city, state;
didn't choose your flesh suit-didn't choose beliefs; didn't choose your demeanor, your personality, or expectations to meet;
didn't choose nature and how cruel and usual or unsual it could be; there's no refund, and what really good are receipts?
you're "somebody" until you're considered "nobody" while you still breathe; there's no "exit" of your choosing-where grace is guaranteed; though you could change your name, smoke cigarettes, consume alcohol, take drugs from your local pharmacy....
it's illegal to seek out a fair, consenting, nontraumatic way to leave; the system demands all of your energy; the system doesn't care how one feels or one's internal grief;
it doesn't matter if you have or want nothing, or if you're a full blown celebrity; nowadays a "star" is the thing more than ever-a person is inspired to be....
there's no where to retreat.... your livelihood revolves around burnout and need to make money....
a wise man once said, "life is suffering, and death is mercy...." i didn't choose to be "some-body"; i didn't choose to have the "ability" to "dream" while i'm asleep; i didn't choose the language that i speak;
if i were "wealthy"- i'd engage in habits that would lead to early decease; but i do not crave money like the parasites in my body craves sugar; if anything i crave natural human interaction-physically-and in other cases intimately- some marijuana, food, satisfactions that one craves instinctively....
but you have to be "some-body", and order to have a chance for that way to be.... nothing here feels real.... and it has been gotten to me....
