You know the word that bothers me? Suicide. It's such a gross, angry, hateful, emotional, belittling, hurtful, saddening word. We brought it up in 'class' today. All I could think was about you. I ******* miss you. Then people started talking, laughing. "If I were a vegetable I would want to end my unpurposeful life too" "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem". I just.. Do you even understand how broken I am? Can you feel it? I just want to end this.. all. Why is that so bad? Can't you hear me screaming. But when I do don't call it suicide. Call it something peaceful.. Tell them I just simply went home.