a desert stripped of want,
my mouth heaving for air
already spent on you.
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I sat at that bench
I knew for years
when I still deluded myself.
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It rots with red oxygen,
rusted, blood-soaked at its roots.
Your face still holds that stilted beauty
in the Martian numbness
we carried as teens.
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Put me in a dress for our special day,
Made of Martian dust.
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I say, watching you get married.
Your memory burns on my palms,
red ash harsh against my fingertips
in self-laceration.
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That girl across the aisle
is only dust
at the end of the world,
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and still you choose her
over anything I could be,
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even when I am all that is left.