I am lucky enough
to be able to
sit here today
and write down
that I've watched
more than fifty years go by
in what has mostly
been a blur
and in that time
I have laughed
and I have danced
and I have loved
and been loved
and I have cried...
I have really, really cried...
and painfully and truthfully
I must admit that
I honestly don't know
how I survived
the nights that I cried
until there was
nothing left of me
that there was only
the heavy
and the hollow
in my chest
that continued to cry...
there were tears
and snot
and heaving
but I was gone...
no longer really there
but somehow
I made it through
I came back somehow
I woke up the next day...
and today I am grateful
beyond words
to still be here today
I know with fifty
plus years gone
there will soon
be a tomorrow
that I will not see
and that it will
come in a flash
but that does not trouble me
as I have said before
Death will make lier's
of us all in the end
we all must one day walk
into the shadows
of the unknown
but I know in the time
I've seen pass
my heart has been
blessed and filled
with the light of love
and I know in whatever time
I have left
that light
will not dim
but grow brighter
and when the shadows come
how lucky I will be
to have such
a beautiful life
to say goodbye to...