passively observing
not really paying attention
someone scores, i'm not even sure who
everybody screams
i hit the floor
tears in my eyes
it's so ******* loud
suddenly all my clothes are too tight
everything is wrong
my head is pounding
hands over ears, kneeling on the floor
he grabs my hand
squeeze
breathe in
squeeze
breathe out
"are you okay? i know how you feel"
i need to say i'm not
i don't know what's wrong with me
just a little screaming
that shouldn't make me cry
instead
i smile
"i'm okay, thank you!"