Hey pineapple
Its only been a few hours since you left
My chapstick fell over on the nightstand
Was that you?
Did you bump that on the way out of our room?
The tiny screw popped out of my glasses
Did you do that too?
Hey pineapple
I walked past the empty middle room that was going to be yours just now
And grief hit me like a brick in the chest
I hurried past
I don’t like looking in there right now
Hey pineapple
I made my tea this morning like a drinking bird
Just dipping the steeper into the water mechanically
Staring intently at nothing
Like you had your tiny hands over my eyes
I have caught myself doing that a lot this morning
Hey pineapple
The house feels a lot stiller now
But there is no peace here
I can already feel my despair turning into rage
At everything and nothing
Hey pineapple
Sorry I keep reaching out to you
Your mom keeps saying “I feel dead inside”
We have to keep walking in on each other crying
And numbly holding each other
Everything is numb
Hey pineapple
I know I already said it
But I’m sorry