Sometimes I sneak past it
Like the light through the crack in the basement door
I hear it in the wind
It's musty scent is all around me
But, it is long gone
Sometimes it comes back to me
Like the fleeting smile of a child
Blowing out the candles of a birthday cake
But, like the black smoke
It is gone in an instant
I wasn't delivered to happy
It was a place I fought to find
You ripped that from me
I allowed you to take it
I have never been the same
I used to smile because I was happy
Now I wear happy like a mask
It covers my soul like a blanket
It hides the broken that I am
As much as I try
As much as I search
I am gone
I miss me
I miss being whole
I miss the love I used to put into the world
I miss knowing I'm a good man
I miss the feeling of hope
I am the ghost
Afraid of leaving the basement
I am the birthday child
Afraid of making a wish
I am you
The spirit destroyer
I am everything I swore I would never be
Empty
And I hate myself for it